99 confessions

I got this "99 Things" idea from Chelsea. The idea is to share 99 things about yourself.

1. I desperately want to be cool. I am no where near it but I would love to be cool.
2. I tell white lies to Ben.
3. Ben sometimes eats graham crackers for breakfast.
4. Sometimes I miss my childfree life although I would never want to go back to it.
5. I don't mind waking up to nurse the first or second time at night. After that I get irritated.
6. I don't always change Ben's diapers as often as I should.
7. I love to eat plain white bread and could probably eat a whole loaf in one sitting.
8. I will quickly change the channel if Max and Ruby or the Wonderpets are on so Ben can't watch them.
9. I swear more often than I should.
10. I love spending time with my immediate family and my in laws.
11. I love it when Ben climbs into bed with us at night.
12. I am painfully shy.
13. I need to be more patient with my children.
14. I am addicted to blogging - mine and other peoples.
15. I am afraid of the dark.
16. I am addicted to peanut butter M&M's
17. My two favorite things to drink are Ice water and Rasberry Lemonade. The ice water can't be tap water.
18. I used to hide in hopes someone would notice I was gone and come find me. Most of the time no one did.
19. I hate tap water. I am a water snob.
20. I love to make Jim laugh.
21. I love to cuddle with Ben.
22. Sometimes I worry Ben is going to be a bully.
23. I don't feel old enough to be a mom of 3.
24. I love to sing in the car.
25. I am horribly self-concious.
26. I hate public speaking.
27. I am scared of movie theater bathrooms (or any empty bathroom that has rows of stalls)
28. I am afraid I'm going to screw up my children.
29. I hate being dependant on other people.
30. I hate crying in front of other people. So much so that even Jim has only seen me cry a handful of times.
31. I love thunderstorms.
32. I am obsessed with my children's clothing coordinating.
33. I hate snotty noses.
34. I hate it when my children look unkept and I won't take them into public without them being dressed (including shoes - yes, even the babies)
35. I love to read true crime stories
36. I am scared to death of anything happening to my children, Jim or my family.
37. I have an overactive imagination.
38. I hate the way I look.
39. I think I used to be gorgeous but not anymore.
40. In a weird way I'm grateful that my tubes are tied.
41. I love the punk rock look.
42. I love tattoos.
43. I would love to get another tattoo.
44. I have a hard time trusting people.
45. I rarely like to be touched.
46. I have almost dropped two of my children because I fell asleep while nursing them.
47. I have forgotten to buckle Ben into his carseat three times in his life.
48. I let Ben sleep on his tummy from 2 months on.
49. I would love to be a midwife but I'm too scared to take the first step.
50. I am so scared of failure that I would rather not try something than fail at it.
51. I am on the computer too much.
52. I don't shower everyday.
53. I love to kiss my babies cheeks.
54. I believe in fate.
55. I believe in ghosts.
56. I love popping pimples.
57. I have a hard time not popping the baby acne on my babies faces.
58. I like the attention I get when I am pregnant.
59. I like the attention I get when I am out with Ben and my twins.
60. I have no fashion sense
61. I love to sleep.
62. I am afraid of the ocean.
63. I could spend the whole day cuddling all of my babies.
64. I 'm afraid people think I'm a bad mom.
65. I hate it when people try to discipline my children in front of me.
66. I love that Ben is advanced.
67. I am a horrible cook
68. I would love to be a better cook.
69. I want to learn to sew.
70. 7 is my favorite number.
71. Pink and black are my favorite colors.
72. I will always be "Daddy's Girl"
73. I am lazy and I hate it.
74. I don't have much self control or will power.
75. I weigh more than anyone in my whole family.
76. I am a hopeless romantic.
77. love to do nice things for other people - even strangers.
78. I think people are generally good.
79. I don't like dealing with people.
80. I love to work on computers.
81. I love books of useless information and random facts.
82. I would love to live outside of California but I don't want to be away from my extended family.
83. I love to make Ben laugh.
84. I love to make Will and Ellie smile.
85. I love Will's pouty face. I think it is adorable.
86. I am too concerned about what other people think.
87. I hate that I will sacrifice my happiness to make other people happy.
88. I love platform shoes.
89. I love being pregnant.
90. I am really sad that I will never have a VBAC.
91. I love to keep my bedroom freezing cold and use lots of blankets.
92. I think I have carpal tunnel.
93. I love taking road trips with Jim.
94. I think I have the cutest kids ever.
95. I hate that other people's lack of attention bothers me.
96. I tend to think that people don't like me and just put up with me.
97. I hate it when people are mean to each other.
98. Even though it gets horrible gas mileage - I love my Durango.
99. This was ALOT harder than I thought it would be.

Now it's your turn! Try it - It really is hard.